-000-

Life is very harsh, indeed.
No matter how often you said to yourself
that you shouldn't cry, your heart is
too painful that tears are just shedding.
But one thing you have to believe in,
it's yourself.
You should be ashamed of complaining that life's hard.
A lot of others experienced the worse but they survived.
You have to have faith that things will change,
and you will win, if it's not soon,
it's closer.
Out there, there are so many terrible things that
would scare you right out of your pants.
People will let you down and break your dreams
constantly.
Even the ones you believed to be by your side forever.
But you know you're better than your problems.
You might get beaten up, but nothing, nothing
can defeat you!
You just have to do harder and focus.
God will be so touched when you do that.

-000-

When you're down there cause you've failed so many,
you keep questioning yourself if you do bad things to people,
if there's price yet you haven't paid,
or if all you've been doing is a complete big mistake.
You have no idea as no one telling you right.
And when it's very painful as then people who should've
supported you turn their back and
you feel all alone, you start to cry.
And then you ask again whether
it's also the price you made.

The further I go through this journey,
the more I understand what this is about.
i believe life is not about impressing everyone met,
it's also not to be afraid of making mistakes and enemies.
as long as you stay honest and act what you are,
therell be someone somewhere who hates you.
and thats a big sign that you're part of universe.
I've gone so long and too far to try to make everyone likes me.
it turned out to be impossible that I lowered my goal
to just so everyone feels okay when I'm around.
but i know now that i dont wake up everyday to impress people!
and i am not afraid of making enemies,
its a clue, honorable people, that maybe you dont need me as
i dont need you, and that I have a frickin' awesome character!

-p.puteri

Tuhan, sederhanakanlah hal-hal yang membuatku bahagia.
Aamiin.

that memorable night

And as I am getting back to where

I used to where

I belong to where

I found this dream was all about you

That’s when you are filling them out

Like before, once more

Gosh we met by accident

I was not the same and I knew you knew it

Things were still awkward as always

And I am the queen of awkwardness I guess

I am not proud of it

Then you waved that night, awkwardly as I would

Then you called me goodbye

And I fell in love with you as you were walking away

Like the very first time

Forever and ever I will build the love once again

As it keeps broken every time I build it

I don’t know when I will stop

And look back realizing how much time has wasted

To yearn of having you

Yet life makes love look hard

Let alone for those who only love and not loved

Someday I will stop I guess

I cannot despise my own right to be happy

Yeah someday I will move on finally

From you

If you actually never have those three little words to tell me

And sure I will move on

It’s just going to be really hard

And I do mean, really hard.

-p.puteri

---11

Because I love you, please look at me.

Because I only love you, please come to my side.

If you’re willing to take the first step, I’ll be there waiting for you.

I just want to say, “I’m sorry”.

Because I cant, I cant be without you.

This cruel love, calls only for you.

But you don’t know.

-p.puteri (from "Heartstring")

---10

The only matters is you, but you’re the only negative. –p.puteri

---9

Maybe these all are my fault.

Its my own fault that I am broken,

That I love you so much.

You never ask for my love, indeed.

But sometimes, you cant target the one you’ll fall for.

Well I fell for you, and I am falling as you smile,

As you work, as you laugh, as you joke, over

And over again.

Now that you cant be around, hearing about you

Still makes me falling in love with you again.

Yes it is none of your doing.

Yes it is all because of me.

But its not fair how those girls can easily get your attention,

While I die daily begging for your eyes.

Yes you are right.

But when I was big, why couldn’t you even glance at me?

Yes its none of your fault.

How come you cant be as nice as your friends to me?

Don’t you know over a million I only wait for you?

Wait for you to see me? For once?

Everyone can see me loving you, you don’t.

And is it my fault keeps falling for you after all the gets up?

-p.puteri

---8

I thought it wasn’t you anymore.

But I cant lie about the tears that are falling onto the notes

is you.

For all these times, it is you.

But you walked by, like all the times before.

Because nothing to be said,

Ever.

-p.puteri

---7

I don’t date my friends.

How could you leave without wondering

Why we are never be friends?

-p.puteri