11.3.11

I’m so much happy when you’re around

For the first time, finally, I confess I love you,

Can’t dream without you

But also for the first time, I know it clearly

Just clearer than ever, that I can’t be with you

I see no hope no compromise

For the first time, I really feel tears falling apart through my cheeks

And my heart does tremble…

                                                                                                                                                                                -p.puteri

11.3.9

Sekarang, bukan perhatianmu lagi yang penting bagiku, bukan lagi berharap matamu melihatku hebat, sudah bukan lagi.

Sekarang, tak peduli jika kau tak di tempat saat aku memuncak, walau aku tak kasat mata sekalipun bagimu, aku tak peduli.

Sekarang, bahkan saat kau di sampingku, atau kau di depanku, sungguh tak berarti lagi.

Sekarang, walau kau memandangku, sempat memanggilku, sudah tak ada gunanya.

Sekarang, bahkan ketika kau berdiri di belakang kursiku, atau lenganmu melintas di depan wajahku, aku tak merasa apa-apa.

Sekarang, sudah terlampau sakit demi menunggu satu tatapan. Terlalu lelah melangkah meraihmu. Hingga terlalu sedih untuk marah.

Sekarang, aku terduduk di tempat yang sangat jauh. Menerawang bersama pusaran angin. Terlampau kecewa untuk berkata. Terlalu sedih untuk mengeluh, sayang.

Sekarang, aku terlalu kaku untuk menggigil, terlalu letih untuk menangis.

Sekarang, walau terlalu larut untuk berpikir, tetap saja…

Apa yang kau perbuat hingga aku sesedih ini? Apa salahku?

                                                                                                                                                                                -p.puteri

11.3.8

Karena aku juga ingin kau tahu aku telah bekerja keras, dan aku letih

Bukan aku ingin disanjung, tapi agar aku sedikit berharga

Atau karena aku rindu diperhatikan saat aku bersedih hati?

Bukan apa-apa, hanya ingin kau tahu,

Betapa aku kecewa karena hanya dia yang tampak olehmu.

                                                                                                                                                                                -p.puteri

11.3.8

Where is everybody, honey?

Are they still around?

Are they using their wings flying through?

Am I left so far away behind?

Don’t they notice I need their hands to help me stand up?

Is there still left a finger for me sobbing my tears that fell down touch the ground?

Where are they, honey, and their lovely eyes?

Do they forget watching me keep standing?

Or do they just forget that they even have eyes to watch?

Are they still around, honey?

As they’ve promised? Don’t they even remember the words they said?

So what it is used, honey, at the room that warm?

Are they still playing that game? The Heart?

Where are they, honey? For the last time I ask,

Is it this easy for them to get lost?

Or just may be they don’t even ever come, do they?

                                                                                                                                                                                -p.puteri

11.3.8

Don’t feel anything any longer but broken,

I’m too tired, but no one let me take a rest,

I’m too sad, but no one cares at all,

Even if I scream out loud, no one will notice

This heart’s crying badly, anyone realizes?

                                                                                                                                                                                -p.puteri

11.3.8

This heart is feeling a terrible one,

Feel like nothing, and rubbish

Today I am sad, does anyone even care?

                                                                                                                                                                                -p.puteri